Hi!
I’m Mariah Contento a 21 year creator, model, and aspiring stylist and fashion designer. About 2 years ago, I had experienced the loss of many people close to my heart. One after another, with little time to heal, they left and were gone forever. Prior to this experience, I hadn’t endured the repercussions of death of a loved one, ever before. My mind’s natural response was to shut down; I couldnt face reality and chose to ignore my feelings as a coping mechanism. Death had always been a concept I couldn’t wrap my head around. I dug myself deeper and deeper into a hole and became very lost with myself and unhappy. I began to live my life in an anxious state, at times I couldn’t help but express my concern but most often I held it in. I would deeply worry for my loved ones in the horrible fear that I could lose them; I had crippling panic attacks in frustration of living in this state of unhappiness.
Whilst I do still experience these emotions to some extent, I can confidently say that my mind state and mental health is at a place that I am proud of and I truly believe this came with accepting the reality that is death. Embracing the sacredness of human life, living your life in authenticity and taking advantage of the endless opportunities at happiness and fulfillment; and then we go, and that’s okay.
I may have gotten alittle deep there but it’s close to my heart. Whilst, I acknowledge that behind the screens, life isn’t always as lavish as we promote, I truly believe in living my life as authentically as possible, both online and off. I’m not a people pleaser, in the best way possible. I won’t bother to change myself to please you, even if at times this means I may not typically fit in with societal “norms”. For example, nudity is something I have found comfort in. I am proud of my body, imperfections and all and I want to show her beauty off. I truly feel most authentically myself when I am nude, when I am free. I can understand that for many, this is difficult to grasp, mistaking my confidence for attention seeking, especially from men. I have accepted the reality that not everyone will understand me or the way I choose to live and that’s okay! I will not compromise myself to adhere to their definition of normality.
Currently, I am happy, my mind is at peace and I am continuously evolving, allowing no one or thing to stunt my growth. I want to take this time to say thank you to all the people both on this earth and in a better place who taught me lessons I could only learn having lived through the pain. I only hope my future holds happiness, peace and fulfillment and of course, fashion.
All the best,
Mariah Contento
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